I was excited about this hike. I’d heard a dazzling waterfall was at the end of it. Along the trail I spied nodding heads of columbine, noting the default color was similar to, yet more intense than, the pink and lemon blooms back in Chicagoland. I noticed a wild cucumber blossom with a little bug crawling inside. Yup, Aurora had those, too. How long was it to this waterfall, anyway?
The air changed a bit. It felt cleaner, oxygen rich, more moist. The dark canopy let only shafts of light through. I passed a tree with six feet of roots above ground and a hollowed out trunk that looked like a hobbit house in the making. Okay, this was definitely different from the Midwest; I must be near the waterfall.
Suddenly I could hear it through the trees: liquid hitting rock. And then I saw it. Well, it is pretty, I thought. Perhaps not as spectacular as I built it up to be… I scrambled down to its base, felt its misty spray on my face, gazed at the pools into which it emptied. I couldn’t help but feel a little let down. This is the payoff?
Sometimes we spend our lives waiting for the payoff, be it the perfect vacation, retirement, even the afterlife. I know I keep dreaming about a forty-day retreat that will change my life forever. But the truth is, I can change my life now. And what if the payoff isn’t as dramatic as expected? What then?
I continued on the path as it switchbacked steeply up. I discovered I was at the top of the waterfall and it was narrow enough to straddle. As the water rushed between my feet, I realized the payoff is actually before, during and after—there is only one moment encompassing them all.
Everything I saw on the remaining portion of the hike took on heightened significance and beauty: the chewed leaf of a rhododendron, a plump golden-orange berry glinting in the sun, strange mauve flowers like veined balloons protruding from the forest floor. Everything is the payoff.
All photos © Sondra Sula.