Have you ever felt guilty about a prayer uttered from your lips? I have. 
I recently asked God to get me out of a jam I had gotten myself into. 
On top of that, the prayer involved a moral dilemma of which I was ashamed. 
I was the “bad” person in this situation, and yet I was asking God for help. 
I simply threw my hands up with a petition that sounded more like a yelp or cry. 
I was willing to face the consequences; let the chips fall where they may, even if those chips fell into a dark abyss. 
But after several months I was miraculously delivered, and this was part of God’s response to me: I love you. I do not want you to suffer so. I understand the strange constraints you are under. Do not mistake this for approval — simply understanding.
God is merciful.
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